Okay, so I'm not a ladies man, smooth operator or chick magnit.
There is a girl I've had on a crush for a while, I've asked her out a couple of times but no dice. Since we met in the same social hobby, we run into each other, not often but once in a while. It could be easy to say that she is not interested, or I'm not her current type and a whole other egotistical bullshit. I think there is something more that just "not her type", I think it has to do with me.
Now there are two questions that keep rattling around in my brain.
1: What signs did I miss?
- I'm by no means that guy who catches every single hint/sign from women, I'm still learning with every day. So I'm wondering what signs did I miss from her that she might have been interested in. I do go back in my head thinking and remember over my interactions with her if I missed a sign(s). There were a few that I missed. But more importantly, what are the signs that she wasn't interested in having a romantic relationship with me. This I think is more important, since it is critical in being a better and more empathetic member of society. It's hard to be so critical of ones self of big failures. Now, thinking with that in mind, I can see more No signs than Yes. And it makes me think what jerk I've been. And probably why I have trouble with not only women but people in general.
2: Why i am attracted to her?
- It seems strange to say this, but I have been lucky to meet many women, who are more intelligent, rich and beautiful than her. But yet, I'm still drawn to her. This leads me to believe that I am trying to fill a void in my life, and that I have in some way, gotten it into my mind that she is able fill that void.
So i have to personal goals now from soul search.
1: Try to be better at reading signs & being a more empathetic person.
2: Figure what is cause my void in my life, that I am not aware of, and start to work towards repairing it.