For some reason all of that shit completely flew out of the window for me last week, @Joshua. But you're right.
I'm going to a friend's party tonight. I realized that, yes, I do want to get better with women, but more importantly what I want right now is a cool lifestyle. I'm usually a very social, likeable guy that is almost always the center of attention. However lately, I haven't felt like that, and I really feel like I don't have many friends anymore. So tonight I plan to approach girls and stuff, but my main focus will be to just find and connect with friends. I want to build up a cool lifestyle for myself where I do the fun outdoors stuff I like to do with a good group of friends, and even have more social circles that I can call up and do something with any time, and have girls just be an addition to that cool lifestyle. I want to have the kind of life where I do many different things with like-minded people and people see me and go "wow I want to have fun like he does." I love doing adventurous things like hiking and playing sports and finding new spots, and at night I really love partying and having fun with my close friends.
Don't get me wrong, I don't want to do this for people to be envious of my lifestyle, I want to do it because I'm tired of sitting at home by myself with no one to call. I'm a big believer that anything that happens to me outside of natural disasters is usually because of me. Not in a negative way or anything, I'm saying I don't have the kind of life I want because I haven't gone out and actually tried to make it happen.
So starting today, I'm going to do just that. I'm going to make connections with as many people as I can and start inviting them out to do fun stuff that I would want to do. If I see a girl I like, I'll definitely talk to her and try to make it go somewhere, but like I said, it's not my first priority.