This is more of a vent than anything. Im not looking for advice or any assistance but if anyone chooses to comment, then I will listen with an open ear.
I will admit.. I am a typical nice guy with a mean streak. I am nice.. I am who I am and I am respectful of everyone to a degree. Anyway, I met this girl at a party, and we hit off dancing and ish...I got her number and we ended up going out 2 days later. I took her to a gaming place and we had a good time.. We just chilled and I got to know her.. I was my normal respectful self... Two days later.... I tried to said a date and she hit me with a we'll see etc etc... Long story short, I was able to get a second date where we went and played pool then we got yogurt and talked... Still my normal respectful.. So we still communicated...And I tried to set a third date and she kind of started to act a bit flakey... So I backed off, and just returned her text leisurely as she would do mine. So last saturday, I reply to a text that she sent me the night before and she invites me to go bowling with her and her friends and I agree..Plans fall through, so the next day we make a date to go out this past tuesday.. The tuesday of the outing, I ask her if she wanted to eat when she got off work because she works in the next town over and I was going to take her to eat before she went out if she didnt... That was at 12:00pm around the afternoon... At 5:07pm, get a text from her saying she was stuck at work and that she needed to cancel..I was supposed to pick her up at 6:30pm...I was furious...On top of that, Id never been cancelled before so that hurt extra bad, and ill admit that. I didnt response right way... I knew I was a bit in my feelings.. So waited and replied and said its all good, and that I hope her job appreciates her hard work. Ive been kind of reading about dating and about when girls are interested, and I kind of started seeing the signs she may not be interested any bsing me... They probably came up before that night, but I was holding out for hope for a 3rd meeting.. In my head, im thinking if I can just get that 3rd meeting, ill be golden and I can open up a little bit more.. So the day after, I ask her if she wants to hang out this weekend or next week, and she says "yea we can plan something." So I ask her when are you free, because I dont want to make plans when shes not avaiable. She texts me back," Next week, It will be crazy at work and I and ive got plans all week.It probably wont be free until next weekend." At that point, I just said fuck it lol..I give up. I texted her back,"Understandable. When your free to hang out hit me up. Keep in touch -with a smiley face."
I dont know all the nuiances of dating or seduction, sexual attraction all the stuff Ive been reading about.. All I know, ive been slowing getting rejected, pushed off to the side by this girl, and all honesty, it sux it hurts. Thats the worst part.. Im writing about it because in my head, I want to text her," Why dont you just say your not interested?!!" LOL. And I realize that... I dont know where to start.... I dont know why this one stings so much...Maybe I thought I had a quality chick...Maybe I just liked her more than she liked me...Maybe it was because I didnt make a move on her the first two outings..I dont know, but Im trying to be as honest with myself a possible.. And the worst part is....I STILL want to talk to her.. But I deleted her number lol and I know that ship has far sail... So Im a bit in my feelings right now.. I dont like this at all...No idea what to do or where to go from here...
Sorry about the long post...Just wanted to vent..