So I just went through 2 weddings and a funeral. Really put life into perspective. On the one hand, a friend of mine in our department passed away suddenly, and that hit me very hard. I broke down and cried in the middle of doing lab work. I felt there that life wasn't only short, but very unpredictable (And I'm someone who is very logical and like things predictable).
Then I had 2 weddings, my sister's and a week later, my cousin's. Both went very well and I was inevitably asked if I was seeing anyone. I had to answer no, but after discussing things with my mom and several family members, not only was I okay with that, but I also felt that I'm not ready to really be dating a lot. Like, I thought I ALWAYS had time to be with someone or I could make time if that person came into my life. But now, I don't feel that way. I'm so focused on my degree and improving my health and weight, that I literally don't have the time, effort, or energy to pursue someone romantically. And that was extremely hard of me to admit to myself.
So I may be out of the game temporarily, but I still have things I need to improve. My self-respect and self-esteem, how I act towards women I am interested in, and how to be someone who is composed, independent, and fun to be around. That is what I am working on and I thank you all for your advice.