Can I be a sexy loverz first?
20141112 - Graduation is right around the bend..
Hello friends, good to be posting again. Although updates on my progress journal have been sparse, I've had the good fortune to have some hard work pay off recently. I wrote this in response to @RyanM and his question about approach anxiety, so here's a fairly thorough
Cycling through all these girls however, I found I'm still not able to make a powerful sexual connection as quickly as I want (a la @Howie and @Mike) Recently I've been trying to record some of my interactions for @Nick to give feedback on, and that's been a shudder inducing experience. Never the less, I knew that because recording myself was an objective way to check in on myself and how I am in my interactions, I've pushed on to keep recording them. (Still haven't had the guts to listen to myself yet though haha)
Currently I'm seeing two girls, ES1014 and JC1114 from above. ES1014 I just saw today, and we had a really fun make out session on campus until a grad student walked in on us (sorry mysterious grad student!) JC1114 and I went on our first date last night, and we got as far as coming back to my apartment and making out on my bed. All clothes stayed on for both, and I'd like to go full pedal, especially before winter break when all sides may cool off.
Listening to Nick's feedback, it sounds like I've got to refine my presentation and learn how to turn girls on. In my experience, reaping the benefits of me being a touchy and flirty person, I have no problem touching girls and turning the heat up physically. Verbal word play, playful dirty talk, and logistics to a degree seem to be the next pieces of the puzzle that I need to figure out. I like ES1114 alot, but definitely would not want to commit to a relationship unless I felt that we were sexually comfortable with each other. JC1114 is at a different stage in her life, so we're cool just casually dating/being lovers.
I've got some other girl experiences that occurred recently, but I'll pepper them in as anecdotes as I read what y'all have been up to. Many aspects of life continue to go well (fitness, creative hobbies, school) but the career stuff with graduation right around the corner has taken a very large proportion of my attention. Hopefully I can overcome both my professional and dating challenges gracefully, wish me luck guiseee